Colorado food

Flour, Sugar and ‘The Flow’

flowHow mindful baking can heal the baker and spread buttery bliss


(Published in the Nov. 20199 issue of Sensi/Denver-Boulder)

My favorite life moments are when I completely lose track of me. I’m chopping toasted walnuts, simmering Jonathan apples with vanilla bean, and working butter, salt and flour to a consistency only my fingertips can recognize.

Playing with the dough like a kid, I layer the filling over the bottom crust and mess with upper, my open artist’s canvas. When the kitchen is perfumed and the finished product emerges from the oven tasting like a party and looking like a wrapped gift, a certain kind of bliss envelopes me. When I bake my noisy brain shuts up for a little while.

According to Kathy Hawkins of Denver’s Kathy Hawkins Counseling, I am engaged in one of the best wellness-enhancing rituals.

In her counseling practice, Hawkins says she often recommends mindful meditation. “There are a lot of kinds of mindful meditation besides sitting. Walking and doing art can be meditations and baking can be also,” she says. Hawkins knows food psychology firsthand, having owned and managed restaurants besides being a waitress and sommelier.

“Baking is a serious way to show people you love them and there is a lot of reward for both the baker and the recipient,” Hawkins says. You can have your cake and heal with it, too.

This is Your Brain on Baking

Research has shown that mindful meditation can be good for heart health, and reduces blood pressure and anxiety.

“Baking creates a flow state where you are enveloped in the moment. You are not worrying about the past or the future. People who are healthier mentally and emotionally tend to live in the flow state more of the time,” Hawkins says.

Baking scones and lemon bars can also change brain chemistry. “When you create something tasty, the immediate payoff is a hit of the brain chemicals dopamine and serotonin which improves your mood,” Hawkins says.

Besides butterfat satisfaction, there is the lure of the sweet. “When you eat the baked goods you get a dose of sugar which lights up the same area of the brain as cocaine,” she says.

That may partially explain why we celebrate the major occasions of our lives with cakes, pies and cookies, not salad and nachos. Big festive desserts are designed to be shared – no matter how many guests are on hand – at birthdays, quinceaneras, weddings and funerals in almost every culture.


LAFAYETTE, CO – JANUARY 16 : One of the ten secrets to making a really good pie is using a glass pie dish to bake so you can see if the bottom is fully baked. Writer John Lehndorff in Lafayette demonstrates with a blueberry pie he created on Thursday, January 16, 2014. . (Denver Post Photo by Cyrus McCrimmon)

The Power of Positive Cookies

According to local bakers and pastry chefs, the biggest payoff of baking is feeding the soul. “They say that you cook for yourself but you always bake for others,” says Jennifer Bush, co-founder of Lucky’s Bake House in Boulder.

After toiling in basements as a restaurant pastry chef, Bush designed her bakery with an open kitchen. “When people come in I get to see those eyes light up as they taste something. With cakes I’m a part of so many people’s lives – their joy, their grief. It never gets old,” Bush says.

It’s almost like a super power, says John Hinman, producer of artisan bread, bun, pastries and pies at Denver’s Hinman’s Bakery. “When I’m working our booth at the farmers market and I see a sad kid walking by I always have to give them a chocolate chip cookie. To see that grin makes me know I’ve changed the course of their day,” he says.

johnpie.JPGIt’s all about the power of memory. “A muffin or pie or cake can take you back to a happier place and time,” Hinman says.

Desserts – especially those involving chocolate – have a strong association with love. “It can be a real pick-me-up and make the world seem like a good place,” says Genny McGregor, “cocoa coordinator” of Piece, Love & Chocolate. The Boulder chocolatier offers artisan truffles, candies, pastries and drinking chocolate.

Sometimes visitors to the shop become visibly, physically moved by tasting a particular confection. “This look comes over people’s faces. They close their eyes. It almost looks like they are ….. well, they look happy,” McGregor says with a smile.

Salted Caramel on the Right Side of the Brain

Bakers are different from other culinary creatives. “There is a balance between science and creativity. I like all the numbers involved, the exact measuring and setting out the ingredients and tools for an amazing dish before you start,” says Jennifer Akina, a celebrated cake artist at Denver’s Azucar Bakery.

Akina studied chemistry and biology in college, a common background among bakers (not to mention brewers and distillers).

Akina is preparing to open Melted at The Source with restaurateur Bryan Drayton (of Acorn, Oak and Corrida) featuring artisan cookies and Thai ice cream sandwiches on freshly baked French rolls. “I’m doing recipe testing now so I get to play with the millions of flavors in my head,” she says.

Part of what she calls her “therapy” is following defined steps of pouring, proofing yeast, sifting, stirring and plating. “Working with my hands gets the stress out for me. I have to focus and forget about everything else,” Akina says.

Pastry creation is fundamentally tactile, not unlike massage therapy. “When I am training somebody I have to show how to do techniques with my hands. I can’t tell them,” she says.

Sometimes baked goods can speak volumes. “I am the worst with words. I can show someone I care without saying anything by baking something for them. They know what I’m feeling,” Akina says.

53723622_2280148812043057_5091081270050422784_nHow to Become a Mindful Baker

Escaping into baking can help you learn to relax, gain confidence and it’s a safe way to try something new, according to Kathy Hawkins.

“It also is such a thoughtful expression of affection because you took the time.  You didn’t just pick something up at a store,” she says.

Many home cooks are intimidated by baking to the point of being “pastry-phobic” because they don’t bake often enough to feel good at it. The answer is to begin a mindful baking practice and intentionally create treats for others on a regular basis.

First, relax, breathe and forget about being “gourmet” or making elaborate edible sculptures, Hawkins says.

“I think back to my mother. Every weekend she would make Pillsbury Cinnamon Rolls with icing from the can. It was her way of showing me that she loved me,” she says.

Don’t bite off more than you can bake. “Make sure you have a solid, simple recipe. Start with granola or cookies, not apple pie. See how happy it makes you feel and then get more complicated,” says Jennifer Bush of Lucky’s Bake House.

Try making a dessert you don’t particularly love because you know how happy it will make someone else. “You get outside yourself, think about what others need and enjoy the feeling of altruism.” Hawkins says.

If you are a perfectionist, baking could be a source of anxiety. Serious bakers will regale you with self-deprecating tales of burned crusts, sunken souffles and banana bread baked with salt mistaken for sugar.

“You can’t be afraid. It’s not life or death. It’s just cake. We say: ‘No blame, no shame.’ You learn and move on,” Genny McGregor says.

Consider embracing the traditional. Japanese concept of wabi sabi, seeing the beauty in imperfection. Besides, you can always add more frosting.

Encourage family and friends to join you in mindfulness by scheduling a holiday cookie exchange this season. Honor an elder by asking them to teach you how to make a comforting family favorite.


All You Knead is Love

Bakers serve as pastry therapists for the rest of us, but those who create sweets need love, too. Hinman and others in the Denver hospitality industry have formed an organization called Chow which offers support services to deal with addiction, suicide and mental illness among cooks, bakers, bartenders and waiters. The idea is to promote work/life balance in kitchens where the prevailing culture has often been quite brutal.

Hinman says he rarely has leftover pies at his bakery but on a recent Saturday found himself with a dozen or so. “I decided to bring them to Azucar Bakery because I knew they were working really hard,” he says.

You would think that the last thing a baker wants to eat would be additional baked goods. “When John (Hinman) brought us pies at the bakery the whole staff lit up. Who brings a baker a pie? It was so wonderful,” Jennifer Akina says.

Ultimately, making the attempt and investing the thought and time is the sweetest part for folks when we show up at the front door with home–baked goodies.

John Lehndorff was the former Executive Director of the American Pie Council, Chief Judge at the National Pie Championships and spokesperson for National Pie Day, Jan. 23. He enjoys making and receiving double-crusted wild blueberry pies.



The Recipe for Mindful Baking

Jennifer Bush, pastry chef and founder of Boulder’s Lucky Bake House, shares this gluten-free cake recipe.


Gluten-Free Chocolate Cake

6 ounces unsalted butter, room temperature

¼ cup granulated cane sugar

1 cup almond paste

½ cup Black Onyx cocoa powder (see note)

4 eggs


½ cup heavy cream

2 tablespoons honey

1 teaspoon instant coffee

8 ounces semi-sweet or bittersweet chocolate

Slivered almonds

Cream the almond paste in a stand mixer until all the clumps are broken up. Stream in the sugar and continue mixing for one minute, until the mixture is sand textured. Add butter little by little, then add eggs one by one until mixture is smooth. Sift cocoa to remove lumps and add to mixture. Mix until combined, and remember to scrape sides of bowl. Line a 9-inch cake pan with parchment paper or use nonstick spray. Scrape mixture into pan and bake at 325 degrees for about 20 to 25 minutes, until cake is firm to the touch. Let cake cool completely before unmolding and inverting on a plate.

To make the glaze, gently heat cream, coffee and honey. Pour over chocolate and whisk until combined. Pour warm glaze over cake; decorate with slivered almonds. Makes one 9-inch cake

Note: Black Onyx cocoa powder is available at local Savory Spice Shops. Any high-quality (unsweetened) cocoa powder can substitute.


“Baby don’t be blue/ Gonna make for you/ Gonna make a pie with a heart in the middle/ Gonna be a pie from the heaven above/ Gonna be filled with strawberry love.” – Song from the film “Waitress”

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